A Heart Felt Cry

Today’s post is not a poem or word of encouragement so if you want to delete the email or ignore the post… feel free.

I have been told since I was a young child, “Stefani, you can’t save the world.”  I have always tried to help others.  If I heard of people in need, I wanted to help.  If I heard about someone killing another (or themselves), I felt like I (even though they may have been in another country) could have made a difference.  I speak Spanish and had an in-law (not far from me) who was pregnant.  She was having complications and since her relationship with me wasn’t close, she didn’t call me.  The hospital sent her home and the baby died.  If I could have been there I would have argued with the hospital, but I wasn’t.  “Stefani, you can’t save the world.”

A local teen who was a classmate of my son’s friend, killed himself last night.  Said he was going for a walk…  My son’s friend and I were talking about him LAST NIGHT and how he was missing school and stopped caring, etc.  He was CRYING-OUT for help and NO ONE was listening!  “Stefani, you can’t save the world.”

WE WERE TALKING ABOUT HIM WHILE HE WAS ENDING HIS LIFE!!!  “Stefani, you can’t save the world.”  

I asked my sister “Why are we losing our youth?”  She said WE aren’t losing OURS, THEIR parents are.  “They are quitting and giving up on their kids acting out or wanting to be left alone.  This is the result.”  I thought again, “Stefani, you can’t save the world.”  But, I was JUST TALKING ABOUT HIM!  If I had thought, maybe we could go to see him and talk to him. Maybe we could have stopped him in time… But, NO life is too overwhelming and we didn’t have TIME.   Well, now we have TIME, but HE doesn’t.  And the kicker…I repeat…

WE WERE TALKING ABOUT HIM WHILE HE WAS ENDING HIS LIFE!!! 

Doesn’t the school have a counselor.  Don’t they know the signs of pre-suicidal teens.  Why didn’t they SEE him?  Do SOMETHING?  DID they try?  How is their conscious today?

Since the world began to only care about “MY FOUR AND NO MORE” we have lost our sense of community.  The village CAN’T raise the child because we are no longer a village.  We are just a bunch of beings walking around only occupying our own space, numb and dumb to any world, but ours.  So afraid of being sued or hurt if we out our nose in someone else’s business.

Stefani, you can’t save the world, it’s not your responsibility.

If everyone says, NOT I, then WHO WILL?

This is my heart felt cry!

Pain

It’s funny how we let pain overtake our thoughts and our actions. Pain is real, but the power we choose to give it is up to us.  I have pain daily because of the chemo treatments, but I have to say if I will give in to that pain or deal with it.

There is also an emotional pain.  It has the same principals.  We can let it rule and ultimately ruin our lives or deal and not acknowledge it.  The choice is ours.  It isn’t an easy option, but in life there are no truly EASY options.  No matter what we do there are consequences.  So in the end what we choose directs our outcome in life.

Change is inevitable so we need to learn to adapt to it.  Making better decisions will lead to better consequences.  Less stress from wrong decisions leaves less pain to sort through.

Think before you act.